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I wish I had answers. (could be triggering)

  I have almost come to accept the fact that I live with Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. Despite spending the last thirty years trying to cure myself, I admit defeat, I can not cure it. I can only live with … Continue reading

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A conversation with my Dad, not at all what you think.

My brother was married two weeks ago and I did not attend the wedding. I struggled with whether or not I should attend from the time we received the invitation to about two hours before the wedding when I decided … Continue reading

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You don’t know until you know!

The first time I heard the sentence “You don’t know until you know” I thought it was the most ridiculous thing I had ever heard. That sentence often comes back to me in  AHA moments and then it makes sense. The … Continue reading

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PTSD stirkes again!

My thirty year old niece is beginning to put the pieces of her mothers past together with her mothers frequent emotional outbursts and meltdowns. Recently, my father shared that my six brothers, my sister and I, may not really be … Continue reading

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Therapy me vs. angry me

I’m not sure I should post today. I am feeling really cranky, that sounds so much less intimidating than I am angry. Anger is not a feeling that I do well. In fact, I spent so many years never acknowledging … Continue reading

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Do I really want to start giving up now…do I have a choice?

So for a couple of weeks I have been struggling with my PTSD symptoms. I know where they are coming from and it hasn’t been enough to talk through them. My new job is located smack dab in the middle … Continue reading

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time travel via PTSD

As a survivor of childhood sexual abuse I have had to learn how to feel normal everyday feelings. Happiness, sadness, and anger were all missing from my vocabulary growing up. I simple could not or would not feel anything.  I have slowly … Continue reading

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