Tag Archives: healing

I notice little things….

Changes make me feel unsafe in the world no matter what. I tried to think of another ending for that sentence but the truth is big changes or  little changes make me feel unsafe in the world. I recently changed … Continue reading

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As i turn 52 years old today ! I think back at where i came from and where i am today. Never in a million years would I have expected to be in a happy and healthy relationship. I could not have told … Continue reading

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angry scared, angry sad, angry mad!

Angry Scared Of course before angry scared came not angry. I went through life proudly stating that I never got angry. It was true I never felt anything and certainly not anger. I remember early in therapy trying to allow … Continue reading

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Having fun is a lot of work.

This week I was fortunate enough to go on vacation with my partner. Finally five days for just the two of us and the other one hundred thousand people at Disney. There is nothing like relaxing and having fun to … Continue reading

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New job

So….. I posted a couple of weeks ago that I was taking a new job. It has been a month. I have been extremely stressed and I have had trouble sleeping. I am working with people in a substance abuse … Continue reading

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Words hurt too!

All of the therapy and all of my hard work and still I can be hurt by a simple word like dumb. My partner who is usually one of the most caring thoughtful people I know said that word to … Continue reading

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Old behaviors are creeping back !

Today I find myself with a rubber band around my wrist….twisting in my fingers so my hand is in almost constant motion. This is an old behavior that seems to have made a comeback this past week. I know it … Continue reading

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