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The curse of facebook and PTSD!

I have been working at living a life where I manage my PTSD well. That is code for I try not to let it  interrupt everything do. It has only been a couple of years that I have been convinced … Continue reading

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As i turn 52 years old today ! I think back at where i came from and where i am today. Never in a million years would I have expected to be in a happy and healthy relationship. I could not have told … Continue reading

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They call it a disorder for a reason.

The word acceptance keeps running through my mind. I don’t want to accept that PTSD will always have a place in my life. It’s funny I diagnosed myself with PTSD long before I ever sought any type of therapy. My … Continue reading

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time travel via PTSD

As a survivor of childhood sexual abuse I have had to learn how to feel normal everyday feelings. Happiness, sadness, and anger were all missing from my vocabulary growing up. I simple could not or would not feel anything.  I have slowly … Continue reading

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Aggression

For years I have turned angry feelings inward….I did whatever I could to avoid them. i would dissociate  I would eat i would over work I would be depressed and suicidal i would self harm….anything to keep from feeling angry. … Continue reading

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I’m overweight and have been for years, but it is the first day I am hungry!

I had this odd feeling in the pit of my stomach today. I made a mental note of it and continued with my day. Then my stomach began to make noise, deep grumbling sounds, that were new to my ears. … Continue reading

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I hate being an incest survivor

Every time I think I am getting out from under the struggle of being an incest survivor, it sneaks up and smacks me.Two weeks ago I was feeling like I finally had and could use the coping skills my therapist … Continue reading

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