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The curse of facebook and PTSD!

I have been working at living a life where I manage my PTSD well. That is code for I try not to let it  interrupt everything do. It has only been a couple of years that I have been convinced … Continue reading

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I notice little things….

Changes make me feel unsafe in the world no matter what. I tried to think of another ending for that sentence but the truth is big changes or  little changes make me feel unsafe in the world. I recently changed … Continue reading

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Help me understand…

Sometimes I write to make sense of things in life that I do not understand. By now everyone has heard of the brutality of trapping and killing Cecil, the lion. Today we learned  his brother Jerhico was also found murdered. I feel for the … Continue reading

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never ending

Many years, many fears Never ending, done pretending Hurt to the core,  never knowing for sure At the end of the day Will I ever be okay?

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Therapy me vs. angry me

I’m not sure I should post today. I am feeling really cranky, that sounds so much less intimidating than I am angry. Anger is not a feeling that I do well. In fact, I spent so many years never acknowledging … Continue reading

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Why is PTSD a life sentence?

I’m so tired of having PTSD…in fact I am so tired of forgetting for a moment that I have it only to have it come back and smack me in the face. I hate acknowledging it’s presence because then I … Continue reading

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time travel via PTSD

As a survivor of childhood sexual abuse I have had to learn how to feel normal everyday feelings. Happiness, sadness, and anger were all missing from my vocabulary growing up. I simple could not or would not feel anything.  I have slowly … Continue reading

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