Tag Archives: C-PTSD

I Struggle…

I struggle to feel. I struggle to feel nothing. I struggle to feel something. I struggle to feel like everyone else. I struggle to feel like myself. I struggle to feel like I fit in. I struggle to feel special. … Continue reading

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Innocence Lost!

Simple Definition of innocence (Merriam-Webster) : the state of being not guilty of a crime or other wrong act : lack of experience with the world and with the bad things that happen in life When I stopped feeling guilty … Continue reading

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Another FUN day!!

I would like to be a go with the flow kind of person but I am not. I really can’t be. The world is a different place for me. It is filled with dangerous, scary sights and sounds that others don’t see … Continue reading

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No need to wonder…

Three steps forward one step back. That is how my therapist describes it when I have a flare up of my PTSD. I can be doing fine and then suddenly, from what feels like out of the blue, I am … Continue reading

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angry scared, angry sad, angry mad!

Angry Scared Of course before angry scared came not angry. I went through life proudly stating that I never got angry. It was true I never felt anything and certainly not anger. I remember early in therapy trying to allow … Continue reading

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All the things I wish I knew

I wish I knew how strong I could be My strength allowed me to give up my  place in my family for a belief in my own worth I wish I knew that love begins with self Years  spent trying … Continue reading

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A conversation with my Dad, not at all what you think.

My brother was married two weeks ago and I did not attend the wedding. I struggled with whether or not I should attend from the time we received the invitation to about two hours before the wedding when I decided … Continue reading

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