Category Archives: ptsd

Vacation

Vacation implies a sense of freedom from the every day..People look forward to it all year The difference for me is what?    ………….That’s right PTSD PTSD means I don’t always feel safe in my own home with people who … Continue reading

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The curse of facebook and PTSD!

I have been working at living a life where I manage my PTSD well. That is code for I try not to let it  interrupt everything do. It has only been a couple of years that I have been convinced … Continue reading

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I notice little things….

Changes make me feel unsafe in the world no matter what. I tried to think of another ending for that sentence but the truth is big changes or  little changes make me feel unsafe in the world. I recently changed … Continue reading

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I Hate PTSD!

It has been a year, maybe more, since I have written. I have forgotten how therapeutic  it can be. I also forget that there are many on the same path with me. Sometimes fighting this fight can be the loneliest … Continue reading

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My logic is hidden in fear today!

For the last week and a half I have been dealing with a “bad bout” of my PTSD. Most times I can use logic and reason and remember that I will be okay. A bad bout is different. In a … Continue reading

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Scared…….again

Soooooooo…….last week I felt like I had everything together! Then this week one of my clients felt as though he could hug me….no invitation, no permission given, but he hugged me. My head buzzed with words…no, please back up, boundaries … Continue reading

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I Struggle…

I struggle to feel. I struggle to feel nothing. I struggle to feel something. I struggle to feel like everyone else. I struggle to feel like myself. I struggle to feel like I fit in. I struggle to feel special. … Continue reading

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