Category Archives: childhood trauma

Vacation

Vacation implies a sense of freedom from the every day..People look forward to it all year The difference for me is what?    ………….That’s right PTSD PTSD means I don’t always feel safe in my own home with people who … Continue reading

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I notice little things….

Changes make me feel unsafe in the world no matter what. I tried to think of another ending for that sentence but the truth is big changes or  little changes make me feel unsafe in the world. I recently changed … Continue reading

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I Hate PTSD!

It has been a year, maybe more, since I have written. I have forgotten how therapeutic  it can be. I also forget that there are many on the same path with me. Sometimes fighting this fight can be the loneliest … Continue reading

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Scared…….again

Soooooooo…….last week I felt like I had everything together! Then this week one of my clients felt as though he could hug me….no invitation, no permission given, but he hugged me. My head buzzed with words…no, please back up, boundaries … Continue reading

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As i turn 52 years old today ! I think back at where i came from and where i am today. Never in a million years would I have expected to be in a happy and healthy relationship. I could not have told … Continue reading

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I Struggle…

I struggle to feel. I struggle to feel nothing. I struggle to feel something. I struggle to feel like everyone else. I struggle to feel like myself. I struggle to feel like I fit in. I struggle to feel special. … Continue reading

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World’s Greatest Time Traveler!

I take exception to those who do not believe I time travel. Thanks to my PTSD I feel like I am able to travel back in time at a moments notice. These trips are often not pleasant  but one moment … Continue reading

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