Soooooooo…….last week I felt like I had everything together!
Then this week one of my clients felt as though he could hug me….no invitation, no permission given, but he hugged me.
My head buzzed with words…no, please back up, boundaries , please don’t block the door.
He had no ill intentions but in my head that didn’t matter. What mattered was the fact that he had just told me about why he is on the sex offender registry!!!
At age 33 he sexually abused a six year old girl! And now he was hugging me and blocking the door.
Do I stay in social worker mode, survivor mode, scream, freeze or play along.
I stayed in social worker mode, walked the client to the front office and went back to my office and proceeded to crash.
i flew so far back in my head I was afraid of the world! My fragile sense of safety shattered in an instant.
Back to that place where logic and reason does not exist! I can’t see the world where I am whole again …..it is too far away!