Monthly Archives: March 2014

why is it never just easy?

So this past Friday, I interviewed for a job that I would consider to be a perfect match for me. I will know in a week or two if I am being considered for the position. In a perfect world, … Continue reading

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Feeling numb and hating it.

In the last five years, my cloak of numbness began to unravel and be replaced with feelings. none good. all  bad. I fought, I cursed, I cut,  I wanted to die. I began to understand  I was not alone. someone was there, they listened and … Continue reading

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Three generations and it is still happening.

So for the past few weeks I have been struggling to own the fact that I have PTSD. On good days it is easy to own. Its the other days that are difficult. This week I found out that my … Continue reading

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It is so much easier to own the fact that I have PTSD when I am having a good day! Today not so much.

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I have brown hair, brown eyes and PTSD.

So I posted a couple weeks ago that I have finally begun to own the fact that I have PTSD. I have known it for twenty some years, worked on it with therapists for about ten years and then one … Continue reading

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It’s 10 p.m. Do you know where your feelings are?

It’s 10 p.m.and I have been trying to fall asleep for a little while. I can’t sleep and suddenly I am starving. I know what I ate today and  I should not be hungry.  My partner says I look like … Continue reading

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Friendships

This is one of those rare occasions where I am having difficulty writing. I allowed myself to feel very close to someone this week and it has been a little disconcerting. They know me, really know me and we connect … Continue reading

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