Monthly Archives: January 2014

The work incident…

So I have walked around in a bit of a fog since last Thursday. I know it is bad when my partner is treating me with kid gloves. The incident at work last Thursday has triggered all of my PTSD … Continue reading

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Is healing worth it?

I have tried to be diligent about posting weekly so I apologize for the delay in this post. It has been a long while since I have been dealt a blow that knocked me from my new foundation.  I work … Continue reading

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Can’t make it up!

Today I woke up feeling calm and immediately thought what is wrong with me? When I wake up sad, angry, overwhelmed, or scared I think nothing of it, to me that is normal. Feeling calm well that is just weird! … Continue reading

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Being loved or being healthy?

The sound of me getting sucked back into my sister’s drama could be heard for miles around. Despite not wanting to be around me the last time I visited, or not calling when she said she would, I was drawn … Continue reading

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Sisters

If I have to give up the idea that my sister will ever join me in this place of healing. I must allow myself to feel that loss. I have always hoped she would do this work, both to have someone who … Continue reading

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My world of opposites

My world of opposites. I thought I had figured out all of the opposites that I learned as a child. Love meant hurting, caring meant grooming, safety was not found in numbers it was found in being alone. But at this … Continue reading

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Truth telling

In January, I am reminded that my mother died 21 years ago. But today I don’t know what to feel. My world crumbled when she died, then I recovered….. only understand I had lost her long before she passed away. When my … Continue reading

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